It's been a hectic week for me (literally).

Let's just say i've been stressed over the past few days, for reasons unknown, and it's caused me to be really bitchy to my family, especially my dad.

Well yesterday I done something quite irrational, I got in the house from school and stormed up to my room. Nobody had done or said anything to me, but I started screaming and yelling at everyone for no initial reason.

I think it was stress from not having anywhere to go in the house to cool down, chill out, my brother is really bone-idle and sharing a room with him for the time being really stresses me out because he's so untidy, disrespectful and messy, my sister has became worse behaved and screams everyday when she can't get her own way. I don't even have a place where I can go to play my guitar in peace to let my creative side flow.

I'm assuming all of that built up and I just raged and ran out of the house, I wasn't intending to run away, I just needed at least 15 minutes out the house to chill. I had to literally push my mam out the way and screamed at her just so I could get out.

Coincidentally, Kenny was at my front door about to ask for her skateboard and I just ran out (she did get her board back though :P) and I just kinda broke down, in tears, and so did my mam, but I just needed 15 minutes away. I've never seen myself so hysterical in my life and neither has Kenny. I wasn't even down the street yet and I already felt bad, and I felt like a desperately needed to apologize to my dad for being so horrible to him over the past few days, so as me and Kenny went looking for him (because he was walking our dog) she really comforted me and reassured me everything would fly over and i'd be good in no time!

Whilst I was out, my mam rang me twice and the second time she managed to convince me to come home and talk things out. So I did, and I can't thank Kenny enough for just comforting me haha, but in all seriousness I came home and just cried and apologized for my irrational behavior. Usually i'm so open with my mam I don't even know why I was stressed out but we managed to sort things out and I became friends with my dad and I feel so much better!



I regret how hastily I acted because there was no need for it, but in a way I don't because I know never to do it again, plus, I got a good part of a song outta it ;)

So lesson of the week: No matter how stressed you are, don't worry about it, keep your head up high because happiness always finds it's way in the end!

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Anyways, today was much better and I feel so much better!

I went to town with my mam and nana, got some new earrings and a new album to go towards my collection!

I got Noel Gallagher's High Flying Birds' album, and it's absolutely amazing, truly a work of a God, ever since I heard 'If I Had A Gun' on Youtube I knew I had to buy this album!

But I was also torn between buying Oasis and Beady Eye, they're all equally as amazing in my eyes, but for some reason I just had to go for Noel!

So, I come home and put my CD onto iTunes and put it on my iPod and put it in my room along with my other CD's!

Then I went straight to my Nana's through Seaham to see her and my Granda, then went home, got my iPod and listened to some Noel Gallagher on my way to Kenny's dad's house and met up with her and Lor there. Afterwards we headed down Ryhope, knocked on for our friend Amy and went out for a bit.

Then I came back up home at about 7, had my tea and wrote this :3

Hectic week, but yeah!

~RachLaDudette